My Anthem as of Late

So as most of you know, Mr. Wonderful and I are in a season of waiting. And waiting sucks, by the way. (If you didn't already know that for yourself.) It's hard not to get anxious. It's hard not to daydream of different possibilities. It's hard to concentrate during the day because my mind wanders to the "what if's." It's hard to fall asleep some nights because my mind is racing.

It's very hard not to doubt. I often catch my own natural defenses preparing me for the worst and in doing so allowing a little sliver of hope to fade. It's also hard not to become bitter (especially when I feel bombarded with pregnancy/baby talk - Another couple announcing their pregnancy. Another celebrity couple having twins or just gave birth.) Waiting is just hard. Period.

But there is one thing I am fighting for during this waiting period. I am fighting furiously to NOT allow my heart to question the sovereignty of God. It is a hard battle some days, though. I must remind myself regularly that God is orchestrating His perfect plan, His beautiful story right now...He's continually moving even though I must sit and wait. And I refuse to allow the evil one to have any fingerprint or part in this story. It is HIS story alone.

I love Natalie Grant's new song, "I Will Not Be Moved." Absolutely L-O-V-E it. It is my anthem as of late. Every time it comes on the radio, I turn the volume up and sing it out loudly. It is my declaration to the world of where I stand. I hope you all find encouragement and strength in these lyrics just as I have.

I Will Not Be Moved
by Natalie Grant

I have been the wayward child
I have acted out
I have questioned Sovereignty
And had my share of doubt
And though sometimes my prayers feel like
They're bouncing off the sky
The hand I hold won't let me go
And is the reason why...

[Chorus:]
I will stumble
I will fall down
But I will not be moved
I will make mistakes
I will face heartache
But I will not be moved
On Christ the Solid Rock I stand
All other ground is sinking sand
I will not be moved

Bitterness has plagued my heart
Many times before
My life has been like broken glass
And I have kept the score
Of all my shattered dreams and though it seemed
That I was far too gone
My brokenness helped me to see
It's grace I'm standing on

And the chaos in my life
Has been a badge I've worn
Though I have been torn
I will not be moved

Thank you for standing firm with Mr. Wonderful and me during this journey! We appreciate your continued prayers, support and love more than we could ever adequately express.