Momentum

I have this problem where once I don't write on here for a while, I forget that I even have a blog and more importantly, I can't think of anything whatsoever to write about. For me, writing begets writing. So when I have an absence due to an unusually busy past month, once that busyness is over, I can't start up again. I can't think of anything to say or write. I am totally blank.

But I am making myself write in hopes that something interesting will come out...

I know one reason that I haven't blogged in awhile is because I am embarassed. I know that I can't blame everything on Hurricane Ike (it's become a joke at work - anything that goes wrong or falls through the cracks is Ike's fault), but the storm was a big disruption in our lives. I personally lost momentum. Specifically, I lost momentum and focus on our road to adoption.

I am embarassed to write that our application is still not turned in. It's been over two months since we started the paperwork, and it still sits in our study! The forms and questions are 99.9% complete, but for some reason that last 0.1% is taking forever. We have not made it a priority. So the goal for this week is to finish the last few items and turn the whole, ginormous packet in at our class on Saturday. Please hold me accountable for getting this done! No more excuses!

On another note, today - October 15th - is National Day of Rememberance for pregnancy and infant loss. It means so much to women like me that there is a day set aside to honor and remember our precious, littlest family members that have gone Home before us. I had a sweet time of reflection this morning thinking about my little angels in Heaven. I look forward to the day when I too will go Home to Jesus and get to hold, smell, kiss and love on all sixteen of my babies! It makes me homesick just thinking about it... The loss of these lives is still very painful for me and something that I struggle with everyday. Although their lives were short, these babies are all very real to me, and they will forever be in my heart and a part of our family. Angie Smith wrote a beautiful post on her blog today about this Day of Rememberance. She asked women to leave comments if they would like prayer about their pregnancy/infant loss. Last check there were over 800 comments. I encourage you to check her blog out and take some time to pray for the women/families who are remembering today.

On a lighter note, tonight it's my turn to host small group! I'm looking forward to a having the house full of some of my favorite people. It's rainy outside today, and I'm making my friend Kelli's "Firehouse Chili" for dinner.

Rain + chili = perfect combo in my book!

Plus, chili reminds me of what I think camping would be like. (I don't know for sure because I've never really been camping.) And since we still don't have any overhead lights in our kitchen/breakfast nook (that really is Ike's fault!), we'll be having our chili dinner with our friends by candlelight! So we're sort of roughin' it tonight! Fun times!

Have a great Wednesday!